Part 10: Going Home

Part 10: Going Home

I could have never imagined how tough it would be to be away from my family. The common joke as moms amongst my friends regarding taking a vacation away from our kiddos for months became reality for me and it certainly was no joke. Yes, as moms we get tired, overrun,...
Part 9: Five Hundred and Thirty Three

Part 9: Five Hundred and Thirty Three

“Dear Lord, please let today be the day. Let these test results show that my body is waking up and my cortisol level be over 500.”I prayed under my breath as I opened my eyes for yet one more day.  Those words had crossed my lips far too often those...
Part 8: The Rollercoaster

Part 8: The Rollercoaster

My journey has been the biggest emotional rollercoaster I have ever been on. The highs are pretty darn hi, but the lows are the ultimate low. Rock bottom for me. There are many times where I am so proud of myself for getting through all of this by myself and yet other...
Part 7: Just This Once

Part 7: Just This Once

“True friends will always find a way to help you. Lesser friends will always find and excuse” Anonymous I could have never have thought that being in a city with almost 400,000 people I would feel so alone. The loneliness is something that is hard to explain. There...
Part 6: Not Today!

Part 6: Not Today!

The first few weeks have been kicking my butt but today I’m kicking back. In order to be physically strong I must be mentally strong so I need to change my mindset. I can do this. I woke up today with a sense of power. A sense of God being by my side. I feel as...
Part 5: That Dreaded First Week

Part 5: That Dreaded First Week

I’m not sure if the first week off meds is supposed to be the hardest or the easiest but it sure is kicking my butt! If it’s the easiest week as they have suggested, I think I am in trouble. And to be honest, I’m not sure I can do it if it’s going to get worse....